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disappearing-act: untitled by andreea preda on Flickr.

Sun, 18 Sep 2011 17:11:58 -0400

disappearing-act:

untitled by andreea preda on Flickr.

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Sun, 18 Sep 2011 17:10:33 -0400

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Sun, 18 Sep 2011 16:33:53 -0400

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Sun, 18 Sep 2011 16:31:32 -0400

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Sun, 18 Sep 2011 16:30:30 -0400

i just ate a whole jar of dark chocolate almond butter. that’s 2,160 calories. also had a...

Sat, 17 Sep 2011 17:24:38 -0400

i just ate a whole jar of dark chocolate almond butter.

that’s 2,160 calories.

also had a fiber bar and a piece of bread.

2,370 calories in one sitting.

that’s not including what i also had today.

total so far today is 2,981

i still have dinner to wait for which is going to be vegan burgers (220 calories) with cottage cheese (90 calories)

holyshit.

Sat, 17 Sep 2011 17:17:55 -0400

I miss restricting and fasting.

thepeanutbutterrunner: progressionnotregression: I love...

Sat, 17 Sep 2011 13:43:06 -0400

thepeanutbutterrunner:

progressionnotregression:

I love steamed broccoliiiii

me too! I heart broccoli

you would think that i would be so happy but i’m really not. i’m really fucking not.

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 19:40:53 -0400

you would think that i would be so happy but i’m really not.

i’m really fucking not.

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Thu, 15 Sep 2011 19:38:30 -0400

avgoustos: (by COHEK)

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 19:37:52 -0400

avgoustos:

(by COHEK)

Yesterday i was at my Father’s store and i sat next to him. He looked at me and asked...

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 17:47:00 -0400

Yesterday i was at my Father’s store and i sat next to him. He looked at me and asked “So, when are you going gain weight?” and i instantly told him I’m not. He just loked at me like he was annoyed and said “you know, if you took off all your clothes and your shoes you’d probably be around 100 pounds” and i just yelled at him telling i am never gaining weight. My fiance looked at me and told me to cool down. After that i ran outside for a quick walk because i was so mad that my dad even said to gain weight. Then today he took me out shopping and my fiance and i have been having issues with income lately so we are on a budget and he said “Too bad you can’t just sign up for the gym but i don’t think they’d take you in” I asked him why does he say that and he said “because believe it or not they don’t take people who are underweight” i just laughed. That number means nothing to me. I don’t look 105, I may be 105 but i do not look like it and that number will never make me happy. No number will make me happy because all i want is to keep dropping. To simply disappear.

daintyd: One of my all-time favorites.

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 11:25:23 -0400

daintyd:

One of my all-time favorites.

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Wed, 14 Sep 2011 18:53:42 -0400

maigre—amour: skinnywristsandthighs: this really touched...

Wed, 14 Sep 2011 18:46:26 -0400

maigre—amour:

skinnywristsandthighs:

this really touched me dont know why but its just amazing tbh.

I really love this.

am0rpetilus: red hair by irinastepanova on Flickr.

Wed, 14 Sep 2011 17:24:58 -0400

am0rpetilus:

red hair by irinastepanova on Flickr.

So, i'm engaged.

Wed, 14 Sep 2011 16:31:32 -0400

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Tue, 13 Sep 2011 10:34:05 -0400

So, i finally weighed myself today.

Tue, 13 Sep 2011 10:32:13 -0400

105.3 lbs.

I’m not going to lie, when i saw that i was extremely shocked. Lately, i’ve been eating a lot more or at least it feels like it and i would’ve sworn i was going to be at least 130-135 when i weighed myself next but no i actually lost since i last weighed myself. My dad was even there when i weighed myself and i instantly looked at him and told him that the scale was wrong because i can’t be that number. I couldn’t have lost. He said i was being dramatic and said that i should put a weight on the scale to check if it’s right. I put a 20 pound weight and the scale read exactly 20.00 pounds. So it was definitely right.

However, i’m not happy about this number at all. I need it to be lower and why is it if i am at this weight i don’t look it? I look so much higher then that. I want to lose some more when i have my check up at the end of this month or beginning of next. I just need it to be lower. I need to increase my gym time and looks like i have to try to be sneaky.